Letter from a Daughter

Dear God,

Can we have an honest conversation? Can I pour my heart out to you?

Today I reflected on a Psalm that I love. One that I’ve heard many times, like one of my dad’s old records, but it’s stuck on a single note—Shepherd. I can no longer hear the music.

As I read, I cry because the words that I know to be true in my heart fall flat—lifeless, waiting to be revived.

I’m embarrassed to admit that I’m not a champion of the faith, running the race well. No. Truth is, I am tired, worn out, burnt out, and searching for your peace.

As I read the words, “The Lord is my Shepherd,”

It is a convicting reminder of how I have become that lost sheep. I keep wondering, when will you come find me? Where are you?

I go on reading, “I shall not want.”

I shake my head because I don’t feel that way. I want. I have things that I have poured out to you again and again hoping for the dreams that you have placed within me to come to life. So, I can’t say; I shall not want because I am restless and selfish and filled with desires.

The Psalmist goes on praising, “You lead me beside still waters.”

But I’m in a place where I don’t know where still waters can be found. Can you lead through the troubled waters?

I reflect on this Psalm over and over again and THIS part in particular creates a longing, “You restore my soul: you lead me in the paths of righteousness for Your name’s sake.”

Today, Father, I cry out, “Will you?”

Will you restore all these broken pieces that I can’t put back together?

Will you lead me? I’ve been lost and searching without a clear direction for far too long.

As my Shepherd, will you guide me into paths of righteousness? I want to become a daughter who knows and follows her Father’s heart.

While I have wants and needs, and I live far from green pastures, I still believe Psalm 23 is true. I believe what was said generations ago about who you are. You have not changed. I believe that goodness and mercy follow me for all my days. And I will dwell in your house forever.
This is so much more than I deserve.

So, can I be honest? Can I ask one thing? Can I make this my life song, too? Will you show me your mercy and goodness once again, so that I can echo out what generations before me have known? Can I stay in your presence until there is less of me and all I find is you?

Love,
Your daughter, Daira

Questions for Thought

1. When was the last time you had an honest conversation with the Lord?
2. How has the Lord been your Shepherd?
3. How do you best experience His goodness and mercy?

Daily Challenge

Write a Psalm or a letter to God and don’t be afraid to be vulnerable!